I know the difference between right and wrong, and yet I still manage to put myself in the wrong. I promised myself that I would not have sex with you again because;
- You have already reserved yourself for another girl, and I am pretty sure she loves you
- You just keep fucking with my head.
I don’t know why I do it, I know I crave the attention and I crave what you can give me but for fuck sake Eliera, calm down and take a fucking break! You are only doing yourself more harm but hurting others and yourself. I really thought I’d grown up, but thinking back to last night and all the other times. I really am still just a child. I need some new friends, some people I can lean on for anything. I really need something new in my life or someone I can reserve my heart for because I know that they will give me theirs. I want something real, something constant. But Newcastle is so not the place to be for that.
I need a new career, a new place to be and a new life. I just wish I wasn’t the person I have become. I think it’s time for a change, because I know I am the only person that can change me.
I think now is a time to cry for, help?